HE is the reason for the season!

It is so easy to let the true meaning of Christmas be lost in all the commercial parts. True, we all enjoy the tree, shopping for our loved ones, Santa, lights, etc. But, I am aware more this year, than any other since becoming a mom, that it's SO important to make sure our boys know, what Christmas is really all about. At five-years-old and two-years-old, getting new toys is most important in their minds at Christmas. They are such deprived children with such few toys, the poor little things.......I guess that's why they look forward to it! :) lol! But, I remember as a child getting so excited every year, awaiting Santa's arrival too, so I can't blame them. I just never want them to overlook the main reason we celebrate Christmas. JESUS!!!! Jacob knows as soon as you ask him, why we celebrate it--- 'It's Jesus and Owen's birthday', he'll say. I think it's so sweet that he always remembers Owen shares Jesus' birthday. Now, during our nightly prayers, I always include thankfulness for Jesus birth, so that they are aware.

Speaking of prayers, our little Ethan is already sparked an interest. Almost every night at bedtime, he'll ask for a turn praying. I have no idea what he says, but he whispers so quietly, you can't even hear him, for 30 seconds to a minute, then ends with a loud 'amen!' I love it, and always make sure Jacob stays quiet for Ethan to have his prayers. I'm so proud of them both, and their love for Jesus and interest in prayer at such a young age. Thank God for christian parents who molded Ronnie and I into parents who teach our children how to love and follow Jesus!

Christmas is quickly sneaking up on us-- can't believe it's less than two weeks away now. Still not quite finished shopping, but only a few more gifts to take care of. We're reminded this year, more than any other, how truly blessed we are to have so much. We're patiently awaiting, with increased faith daily, a new job for Ronnie. We are so thankful for his FedEx job, and the benefits it provides us with. God is good, and is still providing for us, and for that we are so thankful. We know He has a plan for us, and we just thank Him in advance for it, and try to stay patient. Please keep praying for our family as Ronnie seeks a new job. It means so much to us.

Our little man, Nathan, turned 3 months old yesterday. SO hard to believe. He's such a happy baby, and is growing up SO fast. He is a stubborn little guy, though, deciding this week that he WILL NOT take a bottle right now, on the few occasions we need him to, for me to be away from him. He was suppose to be with Mom and Dad last night with the other 6 grands, to spend-the-night, but that couldn't happen, without me staying with him. Guess we're getting a sneak peak of his little personality. I'd say he has some of his Daddy's determination! :) Nathan is almost laughing now-- soooooo cute! I'm soaking up every second of this time-- it goes by so fast.

Ethan is Mr. Chatty, talking SO much all the time. He's our persistent one, to say the least. And, those eyes......oh those eyes.....he's gonna have all the girls lined up with those gorgeous eyes. He can give you some looks, cutting his eyes at you with a puckered out bottom lip, if he's mad. Or, cut em' over at you with a little grin, showing how adorable he is, when he wants to be Mr. Cutie-Pie. He looks more like Ronnie every day! He's still loving preschool, and was so funny at his Christmas program Thursday night. He stood completely still not singing one word of the two songs his class sang, on the front row. It was hilarious!

Jacob is doing great in Kindergarten, very impatiently awaiting Christmas morning. It can't get here fast enough. He wrapped up his football season with an end of the season party with the team last week. Each boy received a HUGE trophy, about 3 feet tall, including a 5x7 action shot of themselves, and a mini-football helmet on top. I've never seen a trophy like this one. He's SO proud of it. Now.....where to put it???? I'll have to post a picture of it. His latest fascination is with drawing. I keep scribble paper and crayons on my kitchen table 24/7 now, since it's pointless to put it up daily, only to be dragged back out. His penmanship has improved so much, so fast over the school year. We're so proud of him. My favorite drawing by him, was made a few weeks ago, of me, with the word 'Mom' written below it. He wrote 'Mom' for the first time without asking how to spell it. He's learning so many words, and even reading a little already! It amazes me how quick he learns!

I guess that's about all for now. A long overdue post-- I've been bad about posting. I'll try to be better.

Merry Christmas everyone!!!! Happy Birthday, Jesus!!!

Nathan- 8 weeks already!!!

I can't believe my itty-bitty Nathan will be 8 weeks old tomorrow. Time is really flying by. And, the first weeks are always a blur with the sleep deprivation. I don't want to forget any of this.

Sleep is becoming more and more, and I'm so relieved. Just like with my first two, Mom got Nathan to sleep the longest, the first time she and Dad had him overnight. This occurrence was last Saturday. Mom had been asking for him, and we had been invited to one of my best friend's birthday party, so I 'cut the cord' and left him for the first time, overnight. I didn't expect it, but I got teary-eyed driving away from Mom and Dad's, leaving him. I trust them 100% of course, but there's just something about leaving him like that. I think it's even harder with Nathan, than it was with the other two, because he's nursing beautifully, and we're together so much. I prayed so hard for success with nursing, and God has blessed me with this. Yes, it has been exhausting, especially in the first few weeks, but I wouldn't trade it for anything, and I cherish every moment I have this bonding time with him. It is such a special thing, really. I had no idea. Thank you, God, for this gift with my last little one!

Back to his first night away. I think he ate his last bottle about 9, and he only took an ounce. Then, he slept until 3am!!!!!!!!!!! He took another bottle, then slept until 7:30am!!! And, while he was snoozing at Mom and Dad's, I was getting what felt like, the best sleep of my life, in my bed!! Wow- what a difference a full night's rest can make you feel, after 7 weeks of just power naps in the night. I was so energized Sunday morning!!! Ronnie and I had breakfast, then headed out to pick up all 3 boys and get to church. It was a great morning at church, with Nathan's first time in the nursery. He did beautifully, sleeping the whole time in this little old lady's arms. She met me in the hallway, before I even dropped him off asking if I was leaving him this time. I told her I was and she said 'he's mine!' She rushed into the baby room, and let all the other workers know 'she had called him'. It was so cute, and I felt at ease leaving him in her arms.

Nathan has outgrown the colic-crying quickly. I really don't know if he truly ever had it, but just was upset with all the reflux spitting. He definitely does have reflux, and we're trying out some medicine to see if it will help. The good news is he's steady gaining weight, so that's a good thing. We just don't want the reflux to make his throat sore, that's why we're trying meds. to see if they can be of some help. The laundry this little guy produces is amazing! One large load a day, easy!

He has started smiling and cooing the past few weeks. I've yet to get a great smile on camera. As soon as I do, I'll post it. I need to get the video camera out to get some smiley moments. The first few are so precious. Jacob is hilarious imitating the noises I make to get Nathan smile. What's so funny is, it works! Nathan loves looking at Jacob and smiling. Of course, it makes Jacob so proud, when he causes baby grins.

I guess every parent looks at their child, thinking he's the most beautiful one they've ever seen. But, you truly feel that way. I can't imagine a more beautiful little boy, with his clear, olive skin, dark hair, and blue eyes. He really is gorgeous!!! I am in love, for the fourth time!!!!!!!!!!!! (yes, Ronnie is one of those times:)

Dad and Ice Cream

This is hilarious! I just had to document it. Mom and Dad are in Jekyll Island for the week, camping. Mom called this morning to check in, and when we were finished talking, she said Dad wanted to talk to Ronnie. I'm sure Ronnie figured Dad just had something to tell him, or maybe needed a favor-- something done at the house or whatnot. Nope-- Dad asked Ronnie if he could go by Kroger to pick up some Blue Bell ice cream, since it was on sale for $2.88 a gallon!!! He didn't want one gallon......or two.......but SIX!!!! I just thought it was hilarious, that Dad didn't want to miss a sale on his favorite thing. Well, I guess ice cream does fall behind Mom, his kids, and grand kids, but not far behind! Dad LOVES ice cream, and eats it daily. We got it Dad! :) Thanks to an extra fridge in our basement, we fit 8 gallons of ice cream in it tonight. Yes, we had to get a few gallons for ourselves! :)

Sweet Jacob

We're thinking Nathan will be a colic baby. He has lots of gas pain-- tummy hurts a lot. So, we called our Ped. and asked for prescription gas drops. So, anyway, since Ronnie was at work, I had to take all 3 boys with me to go pick up the drops Wednesday night. Jacob wanted to know why Nathan needed medicine, so I explained it to him. Nathan was crying, more than ready to get out of his car seat by the time we got home. When we were getting out of the car, Jacob was in the back of the Yukon down in the floor. I asked what he was doing, and he said, "I'm praying for Nathan, for his tummy to feel better."

Melted my heart!!!!!

Nathan's 1st week

Well, as most of you know, our sweet Nathan arrived Friday night at 12:04a.m. He weighed 8 lbs. 12 oz., and was 20" long. He surprised us with his weight, since our ultrasound measurements had us expecting 10 lbs! Our pre-delivery guesses were-- Ronnie- 10lbs. 2oz./ Alice- 9 lbs. 14 oz. We were convinced he was huge. Big baby still, yes, but not huge to us, since our first two were 8 and 9 lbs.

He is GORGEOUS, if I do say so myself! He has the most beautiful skin, clear as can be, and a ton of soft, dark hair. Still trying to figure out who he looks like. Most people say his daddy, for sure. I'm just trying to figure out who he favors more, between Jacob and Ethan. Both of them were born looking a lot like Daddy. But now, Jacob is taking on the Helton traits more, the older he's gotten, while Ethan is a Messer looking baby for sure! Hospital picture comparison, Nathan looks more like Jacob. I think he looks like Nathan, and will look different all together. Time will tell.

He's such a sweet baby, already smiling during his short awake times during the day. I'm just in awe at how 'perfect' he came out. Our high risk doctor, even though he was very positive, was convinced he'd have jaundice at birth. And, he was no where close-- having perfectly pink skin right away. He is perfectly healthy from head to toe, and we are so thankful to God!!!

He had his first visit to the doctor this morning, and got another great report. He's already back up to birth weight, after losing 6 oz. in the hospital. No surprise as much as he eats! Mommy's having a hard time keeping up, but I'm managing. I'm so glad that part is going so well

Jacob and Ethan are adjusting well so far. Jacob LOVES to hold him, and wants to at every opportunity. While Ethan just says 'hi, baby' every now and then, with a pat or rub on his head. Having three will be a challenge, I'm sure, but I'm open to it. Thank goodness for Ronnie, Mom and Dad for all of their help right now!!!! While healing, I need a lot of extra help, and they have all given more than enough.

Ronnie and I are so proud of our family, and this new addition just makes it feel complete. Thank you, God, for yet another little blessing. We'll do our best to make you proud as his parents!

to my sweet Nathan

I can't believe I'll be meeting you face to face for the first time, in a matter of weeks, maybe even days. I can't get you out of my mind. You're all I think about, fantasize about, and dream about. I am so excited to......

See your sweet face...
Your little nose......
Look into your eyes.....
See your little mouth and smell your sweet breath.....
Rub your soft cheek and kiss it for the first time.....
Hold your hands and kiss your fists.....
Rub your belly.....
Squeeze your little thighs.......
Rub your little feet and count your toes....

I am just overwhelmed with love and anticipation to see you. I've got your room all ready for you. Your clothes are all washed, your bassinet ready to go. All we need now is you.

I have to admit, I'll miss a little, feeling you move inside me. After all, you are my last little one, and it's just such an incredible blessing to experience this.

I love you, more than you could ever know.
Now and Forever,
Mommy

3 boys plus mommy, all growing up and out! :)

It's been a while since my last post. So much is happening with the Fall approaching. The school year has already begun, Jacob's football practices, and now we're just 5 1/2 weeks away from Nathan's due date!!! Wow-- hard to believe I'm almost a mother of THREE!!!!

I should start with Jacob starting Kindergarten. Can't believe he's already in 'big' school. He's doing great, and seems to really love it! He does come home pretty worn out, but that was to be expected. I believe he's been blessed with two amazing teachers-- can't wait to get to know them more. He loves P.E., and 'outside time' the most, surprise surprise! Ronnie asked him yesterday if they had 'recess', and he said, 'what's that?' Guess they don't call it that anymore. Made us both feel old. And, in addition to starting Kindergarten, he's started football. I wasn't so sure about it at first. A little bully got after him at the first practice, and he came home with an awful scratch on his face. I was 'done' as far as it was concerned, there, but Jacob wasn't, and of course, Ronnie wasn't. Ronnie just gave Jake a pep talk on how to defend himself, and Jacob made sure to do that the next time the little brat, oh, I mean little kid came after him. Got em' good! That's my boy! :) As far as the actual game of football goes, he's learning. He's paying attention more and more, and really getting into it. His first practice game is Saturday.

Ethan started preschool just today. He'll just go Tuesdays and Thursdays, from 9a-12p. Thought he could use a little playtime with other kids, and of course, once the baby arrives, it'll be a little break for Mommy, and a few hours for us alone with Nathan. He walked right into his classroom, no problem, and never looked back. All I could get out of him was that he 'cuddered'(colored), and the evidence was on his hands as well. He has Jake's old teacher from 2 and 3-yr.old preschool, and I just love her. He was most excited about his new Mickey Mouse back pack. He LOVES it and is so proud of it!

Me? Well, I'm feeling pretty good, considering how close we're coming to the end of this pregnancy. He is getting SO big, and I can tell--- I can feel him all over, so I know he's running out of room. As of Friday, his measurements put him at 6 lbs. 8 oz., so he's still off the charts weight-wise. But, most importantly, he's perfectly healthy, and only getting great reports from the high risk doctor. The doctor has already said he feels like the baby probably has my blood type, which is why he's shown no signs of fighting off the antibody. Thank you, God, for this healthy little boy! As far as size goes, we'll just play it by ear right now, as far as what type of delivery I'll have and when. If we opt for a c-section, my OB said they would schedule one week early. So, he could be born as early as Sept. 12th. And, my kiddos don't seem to come out early on their own, so I'm not expecting to see him any sooner. I do have the full-blown waddle now-- there's no pretending I don't. Just can't walk any other way. My niece and nephew, Zach and Kait, got a kick out of seeing me in a swimsuit Saturday. Okay, so the top doesn't cover the entire belly anymore-- I can't help it!!! :) I feel huge, really I do. As a matter of fact, at the store a few days ago, a stranger told me, 'I'm not coming anywhere near you! You look like you could go any minute.' She looked a little surprised when I told her I still had 6 weeks to go.

The nursery is coming along, but I won't post pics until it's done. I'm getting close. The walls are painted, but I still have stripes to paint below the chair rail. I think it'll look really cute, and I can't wait until it's done. My goal is this weekend for it to be completed. Time is sneaking up on me, and my mind is racing about everything I need to do before Nathan arrives. Need to wash all of the bassinet padding, car seat padding, all of his clothes......need to pack for the hospital for me and the boys.......the list goes on.

And, in case you're wondering, Ronnie's hanging in there. I kid him about not giving me enough sympathy, but he gives me plenty. He tries to get me to nap as much as possible, and get to bed early. Last night he cooked one of my favorite meals-- Chicken Alfredo-- Yum! And, several nights, he's been bathing the boys before work. Thank you, Babe! I love you so much, and thanks for putting up with me!

So, that about wraps it up for us right now. I'll keep you up to date as we get closer and closer to the big day!

Getting closer to meeting Nathan!!!

Not much to update on really, but it's been a while, so I thought I'd let everyone know how it's going. It blows my mind that in just 9 1/2 weeks he'll be here!!!! (or less if I get my way!!!)

Went to the OB today. I had my glucose test done 2 weeks ago, as well as having my iron tested, and the antibody screen as usual. All looked great. My levels are perfect. The antibody level is still just as low as it's always been.

I am being monitored weekly now at the high risk doc, and we go back there on Friday. He still looks great there too. They are looking for possible side effects from this antibody in my blood. Some of which could be low blood or anemia. He doesn't show any sign of either one yet.

His head is down, and has been for about a month now, I guess. See-- he is SO ready to come out early!!! The midwife today even said, 'wow, your baby is so big, I can already tell where the rump is, and where the head is!' Yes, I know, I have a big baby-- thanks! I wonder how much he weighs now. Think they'll check measurements to get that estimate next Friday at the high risk-- they only check that every 3 weeks.

So......we wait, and are just so happy at how well he's doing. I'm feeling pretty well, just feeling huge!!! I'll try to post a pic soon. I just don't know how much more my belly can stretch!!!

We plan on getting the nursery going this weekend. Ethan is already moved out, so it's just a matter of my cleaning the room out, and Ronnie and I painting. The new bedding is already here, and I'm so anxious to set it all up. I'll post pics as soon as it's ready!!!

Way To Go, Jacob!!!

They're really growing up!!!

My boys are really growing up. It seems like it's something every day now, that reminds me of the fact. Our most recent event was Ethan moving into Jacob's room, and out of the nursery. Last night was our first night, and he did great! He made it so easy, and totally took me by surprise. At first, he wasn't up for the move. He kept walking back to 'his' room reaching for the crib. But, after a bedtime story, a little milk, and some coaxing, he settled in his new bed like it was no big deal. Even kicked me out of the bed almost--- kept telling me, 'night-night, Mommy', and 'bye-bye, Mommy':( So.....I left, and in a sense......let him grow up a little. He was alsleep within 15 minutes, without getting up once. Wow. He walked into my room this morning at 7:30 with a big grin.

Jacob's little event was deciding he's big enough for showers now, rather than baths with his brother. I did it once last week, after football practice, just because he was so dirty, I didn't want him in a bath with Ethan. He LOVED it, and has requested it every since. I don't let him bathe himself yet-- I still do that part, since I don't know how good a job he would do. But, I'm sure pretty soon, he'll be requesting to 'do it by himself'. Can't complain-- a quick shower is much easier than drawing a bath, and refereeing both boys in the tub together.

It really just blows my mind, that in just a month, my baby will start Kindergarten. And, my little baby will start 2-year-old preschool. They are both just learning so much so fast. I want to use Nanny's 'shrinking machine' to slow things down a bit. Can I, Mom? :)

I really can't say enough how proud I am of them both. Jacob, with his gentleness and sweetness. I just adore him so much. And, Ethan-- such a quick learner, and such a big boy so early. Even though I hear, 'Holdy, Mommy' non-stop-- I know I'll miss it one day soon, when he is all grown up!!!

So happy we get to 'start over' again in September with another little boy! I really can't imagine it being a girl anymore, or wishing it was. Three boys just seems right and perfect, just as God had it planned. Thank you, God, for these three boys!!!

Jacob Cole Messer- FIVE!!!

So hard to believe. My baby is FIVE! Wow-- how time flies. It seems like it goes by quicker and quicker, the more babies I have. With Jacob, he was my first, my only for nearly 3 years, so it was a little different. I had that alone-time with him, and we learned together, how to take care of each other. Oh- what a sweetie! Where do I begin?

I remember how happy we were when we found out we were pregnant with him! It took us 4 months to conceive him, and it felt like forever to me! I was SO ready to be a Mommy, and had trouble waiting on God's timing. But, as always, His timing was perfect. Jacob was born on the longest day of the year, and a Saturday afternoon. He was beautiful, and I've never felt such joy! To meet him face to face for the first time, and to become a Mommy for the first time-- what a gift!

Jacob grew SO fast, and was always SO big. He was always off the charts, and we knew he had a lot of Helton in him. I remember soon after he started walking, how quickly he thinned out, and simply looked tall, instead of big. It's crazy to me how much everyone thought, myself included, that he looked like Ronnie for a good year or two, before he started showing some of my characteristics. Like Ethan, not only with looks, but personality, we're alike. Poor little guy, has my emotions for sure! He is SO soft-hearted. It's so easy to hurt his feelings.

Jacob has the most amazing memory. He forgets NOTHING-- no matter if it was yesterday, or a year ago. He always worries about his family, if someone is sick or hurt. I always have that reminder at bedtime from him, to pray that they will feel better. Ahh- melts my heart.

To think, we were, well me mostly, so worried about him at 2 years old, with his speech delay. Little did we know how he'd be talking our ears off 3 years later. He has come so far, and I am SO proud!!! In fact, I have to be careful of my shhhhing of him. Oh, how he can talk-- and volume!!!! He's got Ronnie's voice, that's for sure! :) Little guy doesn't know the meaning of a whisper.

I have to admit, I am thrilled for this new baby, that he'll have Jacob as an older brother. He's the best big brother. Ethan drives him absolutely crazy, and for the most part, Jacob has complete patience with him. It's nothing for him to give up a toy, to help make Ethan quiet, sometimes before we ask him to. If Ethan's grumpy, Jake's the first to go find him a toy to cheer him up. He told me a few days ago-- 'Mommy, I can't wait for the baby to get here!' I love to hear that! To know that jealousy doesn't even exist for him in this-- just excitement.

I've learned a great deal from Jacob. If I stop what I'm doing, for just a minute, and play with him, he chimes right in with, 'I love you, Mommy', making it obvious how very important our time together is. I love making him happy. He so deserves it.

His Aunt Tanya said it best not too long ago, and I feel the same way. She said, 'I could just eat him with a spoon!' He's just that sweet, and I'm so proud to be his Mommy!

Happy Birthday, Buddy!!! Daddy and I love you so much, Jacob!!! Thank you for five wonderful years!!!

Ethan Blake Messer-- TWO!!!

It's hard to believe that two years ago today, our second little blessing, our second little boy, Ethan, came into our lives. I remember seeing his sweet face for the first time, smelling his breath, touch his cheek. Feels like just yesterday.

This little guy gave us lots of scares during pregnancy, so seeing him nearly perfect for the first time, was indescribable. It just made all of those feelings of relief that we first felt when getting good results back from all the tests that had been run on him, come flooding back. He was born with a lung infection, which we totally didn't expect, nor were prepared for, because it put him in the NICU for 10 days on antibiotics. But, God had a plan, and we accepted it, and witnessed even more healing on our sweet boy. Meeting and getting to know the NICU nurses was wonderful. They were all so caring, and wonderful with Ethan. I remember our favorite nurse, Sonny, his only male nurse, called him the 'big boy', since he was 9 lbs., next to all of these tiny preemies in the NICU.

Wow, two years-- two years watching this little boys grow and mature. He is doing so well developmentally. I'm amazed at just his speech already. He can be very independent, when he's not on Mommy's hip. He has such a different personality from Jacob. Oh-- he is SO much like his Daddy-- not only looks, but attitude!!!(sorry, Ronnie:) He is very feisty, very strong-willed, and did I mention has lots of attitude??!!! On the other side, though, he's so very affectionate, and such a sweet cuddler. I hear 'Mommy, holdy' all day long now, and even though I get tired, I still love that he wants me so much. He is still very much a Momma's boy, but I think will transition quickly into a Daddy's boy. When Ronnie's not home, or even not in the same room, he constantly asks, 'where Daddy?'. Ronnie can't dare leave the house without Ethan saying, 'Ont Daddy hug....ont(want) Daddy mmmpppchh(kiss sound)'. And, when Ronnie gets home, Ethan's knocking things over to get to the door to be the first to greet Daddy. I know it melts his heart, and makes his day.

I love how much Ethan looks like Ronnie. He's such a cutie-pie-- basically a blond Ronnie. His eyes are a little different, so I'm thinking he has my eyes, and Ronnie says he has my lips. Better than nothing. His eye lashes, like Jacob's, are soooo long-- so gorgeous. He's just so 'pretty'! I think I can get away with saying that about a boy at least at this age.

Ethan, Daddy and I are so proud of you, more than you'll ever know. I am so happy to be your Mommy. You are my little shadow, and I know I spoil you rotten. But, you're my baby, and will only be little for so long, so I can't help it. One day, you probably won't let me love on you as much as I do now, so I've gotta soak it all up while I can! I adore you sweet boy, and I thank God for you daily. Thank you for two beautiful years. Happy Birthday, Boogie!!! Daddy and I love you so much!!!

(*photo compliment of Uncle Lance*)

Always in His Arms

Well, my next post was going to be all about our vacation last week. But, something more important has happened, and I want to focus giving this more attention today. Only our immediate family and closest friends know about it, so let me share a little.

Yesterday morning, about 11:15a.m., Jacob, Ethan, and I were in a auto accident. We were hit by a minivan running a red light. The van hit our Yukon on the driver's side, mostly on the front wheel and my door. The impact turned us a full 90 degree angel. I hit my head on the window, but other than that, no injuries for any of us. The boys seemed untouched, Jacob just a little shaken up, and he started to cry as soon as it was over. I held him immediately, letting know everything was okay. I honestly don't know what happened on the driver of the minivan's side, as to why she ran the light. My guess is she was really distracted, because she hit us at full speed, since I didn't hear any streaking of tires, using her breaks. She was very apologetic, and very shaken up, as she had her two children with her as well. I reassured her I understood accidents happen, and just was thankful no one was hurt.

I was actually on my way to take the boys to Mom, because I had a scheduled OB appt. that morning, when the accident happened. Mom met us at the scene and took the boys, and once the police officer was finished with all the reports and released us, Ronnie and I headed to the OB office. Understandably, we were pretty late for our appt., and the midwife was at lunch. They were very sweet, and told us to come back at 1:30 to be fit in. They took us right away at 1:30, and we saw the midwife. She listened to the baby's heartbeat, and it was strong and sounded great. She did, however, surprise us, telling us she wanted us to go on to the hospital to be monitored for a while, and have more tests run. We then spent the next 5-6 hours at the hospital having a very in depth ultrasound, blood work, and hooked to a baby monitor for 4 hours.

A nurse and our OB doctor commented on how well our baby boy registered on the monitor, to be so young, and how very active he was. He moved yesterday more than he ever has. I truly believe none of this is a coincidence. We were discharged from the hospital at 9:15pm. last night with a great report on our baby boy, and told just to let them know if I had any pain or problems.

The boys spent-the-night with Mom, and are doing great this morning, after sleeping great all night. Thank you, Mom for taking such good care of my boys, and not letting that ever be a worry for us yesterday! Thank you, also, to the Messers for offering several times to help out with the boys!

My reason for this post is to praise my precious Lord and Saviour!!!! You see, we almost drove our Honda Accord yesterday, instead of the Yukon. Our car seats were still in the Accord from our vacation, and Ronnie decided to move them over for me at the last minute before I left. Again, no coincidence there. The Yukon shows little damage, even though right now, it's not drivable-- the front left wheel is bent out. It acted as a 'tank', and none of the inside was damaged. The minivan looked much worse. It was our hedge of protection for sure!!!

I KNOW God put us in our Yukon yesterday. I KNOW he held not only me, Jacob, and Ethan in His arms yesterday at 11:15a.m., but our sweet little Nathan as well.(that's his name, by the way) I know it was God who had his heartbeat register so well, and made sure I felt his movement non-stop yesterday afternoon all day. I am blown away by God's love for me and my family! Thank you, God, for watching over us! Thank you for protecting our sweet little unborn baby boy, Nathan. Thank you for loving us so unconditionally every day, all the time. Your angels were truly felt yesterday. I still have chills thinking about it.

Thank you family and friends for checking up on us constantly yesterday. We felt your love non-stop, and it means the world to us. Thank you for your constant prayers for us and our baby!!! Nathan Chase is a tough little guy, and we'll have plenty to tell him about one day, about his time in Mommy's belly!

Graduation

My baby graduated from Pre-K this week. I can't believe he's nearly five-years-old. Time has flown by since I became a mom. It seems like only yesterday I was sitting in a hospital holding my sweet newborn Jacob. I am incredibly proud of Jacob. He has grown into the smartest, sweetest, most loving little boy. When he was two, we were so worried about his delay in speech. Little did we know that he would be driving us nuts, three years later, talking our ears off. He has come so far.

School was an easy adjustment for Jacob. After only a few days of crying when Mommy left him at 2-year-old preschool, he grew to love school, and would sometimes even cry when I picked him up, because he didn't want to leave! Jacob has been blessed with the most amazing teachers- more so this year than any other. Leslie and Andrea have taught Jacob so much this year in Pre-K, and more importantly genuinely loved and cared for him each day in school. They have always praised Jacob for his success, and had such compassion towards him. I will forever be grateful to God for blessing Jacob with these two teachers, as I know they were hand-picked by Him.

Graduation Tuesday night was so sweet. He and his class performed several songs, but the tear-jerker for me, was when they played 'Because You Loved Me' and Jacob walked a rose down to me, and gave me a kiss. I lost it and balled like a baby. It's so hard to see him growing up so fast, but at the same time, I have such pride watching him grow into this little man, whom I know will always make me proud. He was so proud of himself, you could tell, receiving his little diploma. He has made so many friends, and I was thrilled to find out many of them will be going to the same school with him next year.

Tuesday night we presented Jacob with a very special gift as well-- his very first Bible. It was so special to see him open it, and immediately say, "A Bible!!!!" as soon as he opened it. He knew right away, and was so excited about it. Jacob had already been asking for one of his own, so of course we weren't going to deny such a request. We also gave him a signature dog for all of his family and teachers to write a message on graduation night. It's nearly full now with writing, and he adores it, now sleeping with it at night.

Thank you, God, for Jacob's accomplishments. Thank you for a wonderful school, and dedicated teachers to guide Jacob in his first years in school. I pray for an upcoming wonderful year in Kindergarten, and I ask for a christian teacher to guide my baby once again.

Being a Mom

Today is about honoring mothers. Well, I guess the first place to start is with my own Mom. Where do I begin? She's only the most amazing mother ever, and I feel completely blessed to have her hand-picked by God to be mine. She and I have become closer and closer as the years have gone by, especially since I became a mom. We've always gotten along, but I think we've become such close friends over the years. She's the one I want to call with news, or to tell about my feelings or problems. She's always there to listen and ALWAYS to pray for me, even before I ask. She's an incredible Nanny to my boys, and they adore her so much. They get so excited when her name is even mentioned. My husband loves her dearly, and calls her often just to 'check in'. I love that they have that relationship. Mom, you mean the world to me, and I never want to take for granted what a gift you are to me!!!

Nearly 10 years ago, I was introduced into a family, where I would always be welcome with open arms, and feel right at home immediately. MaryLou Messer is the absolute best mother-n-law a girl could have. There's always that joke about the 'in-laws' and I guess your not suppose to get along with them. But, mine never made that possible. And, I've loved them from the moment Ronnie introduced me. MaryLou treats me like I'm her own daughter, and makes me truly feel like a Messer. Thank you for adding so much joy to my life, MaryLou. I love you dearly. And my boys adore you as well, and brighten up at even the mention of your name. You're so good to both of them, and they are so blessed to have you as their Nanny!

Most importantly in my own heart today is my own motherhood. Wow-- what a blessing! I truly am speechless when it comes to describing what it feels like to be a mom. Jacob and Ethan give me so much joy, and teach me so much. I laugh daily and cry lots of happy tears just watching them grow up. I am incredibly proud of my boys, and I thank God daily for their lives, their health, and their happiness. And, now, for the third time, experiencing the growth of yet another blessing inside of me- I am in awe of God's miracles. What did I do to deserve THREE little miracles? All I can say is 'Thank You, God for this privilege!!! Thank you for trusting me with three of your children in this short time on earth. Give me guidance in bringing up three boys to become christian men who love you as much as I do. Thank you for the blessing of staying home with them so not to miss out on so many little milestones. Thank you for a husband who is proud of me and stands by me. Thank you for our family!!!'

Happy Mother's Day to all of my wonderful mom friends and family!!!! I love you all!!!

It's a........

BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No surprise here! :) I just knew it was a boy. God truly answered my prayers though. There was absolutely no disappointment in my heart when I heard the news. How could I be disappointed looking at the beautiful little creature God placed in mine and Ronnie's care? He looks wonderful, and I really am thrilled about a 3rd boy. The more I think about it, the more excited I get. Three boys....three little guys to spoil their Mommy for the rest of their lives!!! :) lol. Boys love their Mommas, right?!! And, a little baseball team for Daddy! :)

The ultrasound looked great, everything measuring correctly, everything looking healthy. The doctor talked in depth about the antibody in my blood, just giving more detail. He said that they'll need to watch for anemia and low blood in the baby. They can do that through ultrasound, and would only take the next step to amnio. if my levels were to rise, and the baby show a true threat. I will go back for another ultrasound in 4 weeks. He did say that this positive antibody that I have hardly ever affects the baby. 90% chance it never will! Good news! Like I've said before, I truly believe in my heart that this will never become an issue, and the baby will remain safe and healthy until full-term.

I am feeling him move more and more daily. It's so cool! Ronnie thinks he may have felt him with his hand on my belly a few days ago. I love it when he can feel it too, so that he becomes closer to the baby physically. Ethan is so funny talking to my belly-- he lifts my shirt and says, 'hi, baby! bye-bye, baby!' So funny! Jacob wants to know now what we'll name him. He said, 'how about two Ethans, Mommy?!' haha! Don't think so, buddy!

Guess that's about it for now. So nice to finally know, so that we can name him, and get things ready. I told Ronnie we have to change up the nursery a little-- it's been the same for nearly 5 years now!!! Needs a makeover! :)

Flutters

Just had to share-- I started feeling little flutters today. I was beginning to worry a little, since I felt both boys before 19 weeks. But, I can feel this little angel now!!!! I LOVE this part!!! What a miracle God has blessed us with!!!! And, what an honor to be a Mommy and feel this presence!!! Thank you, God, for making me a Mom!!!

Spring Break

Sorry I'm just now getting back to update after my OB appt. this week. Really, until yesterday afternoon, I hadn't heard back from my blood work. Couldn't get through to anyone who could tell me. I did finally speak to a nurse yesterday, and as far as I know, nothing has changed. I say 'as far as I know' because she basically read all the medical jargon to me word for word, and I'm not sure how to interpret it all. And I really don't think she did either, even though she wouldn't admit it. I do think I gathered that the levels are the same. That along with the fact that they didn't call with a problem, makes me feel certain everything is fine.

The appt. Monday went well. It was Spring Break this week, so we took Jacob and our niece Mercedes- since we had her that day with us- to hear the baby's heartbeat. Unfortunately 'little one' wouldn't cooperate and kept moving around, so it was hard for the doctor to keep him/her on the monitor long. We could hear it for a few seconds at a time. Heartbeat sounded good, and we'll go back in 3 weeks, May 5th, for another check-up.

Right now, we're just counting down to May 2nd, when we find out what we're having. Of course 'little one' could choose to keep us in the dark and not cooperate. I'm still convinced it's a boy after seeing our 12 wk. ultrasound, but we'll see. I am picturing a boy, but have NO IDEA what the little guy would be named. Ronnie and I, I guess, can only come up with 2 names to agree on for a boy-- Jacob and Ethan :). Girl's name is easy, and I'll share that name if we were to use it, later on. Ronnie and I did go shopping at Kohl's today with some gift cert. we both had held onto from our b-days, and I kept cutting my eyes over at all the precious little baby girl outfits. I want to buy all of them!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But.....I really don't think I will be. We'll see.

Last weekend turned out better than anticipated. By Sunday, Ronnie was SO much better. Those antibiotics kicked in fast, and by Monday morning, he was pretty much back to himself. I was so relieved for him. Being sick is not fun for him......or any of us.....so it's better when Daddy is well :)

The boys and I met Heidi and her boys at the park last Sunday and had a blast! They are crazy, but love each other so much, and have so much fun together. Monday we met up again with Mom also this time, at Kangaroo Kids(blow-up warehouse) for some playtime. The boys were all worn out after several hours, and I know my boys didn't fight me for bedtime that night!

Tuesday was wonderful with Rebecca, Micah, and Madison at Noah's Ark. For those of you who don't know, Rebecca is one of my closest friends, and her twins are just one month older than Jacob. Ever since they were all born, we've become really close, and our kids love being together. Our husbands basically grew up together, so it was nice when we instantly clicked not long after we both had babies. Micah and Madison call me 'Aunt Alice', and my kids call them aunt and uncle.

Ronnie took off a few extra days this week from FedEx, so it's been so nice having him home at night. Jacob is loving it, and dreading him going back. Every day he asks if daddy has to work tonight, and I tell him, 'no, not until Monday'. He always replies back with an enthusiastic 'YES!' Ronnie says we have 2 Momma's boys, but I think they are quickly becoming Daddy's boys too!

With him home at night, we took advantage, and headed to Stone Mountain Thursday night for the Laser Show. Jacob's 2nd time going- Ethan's first. They both LOVED it, and were motionless once the show started. I love it so much there, and think we'll get season passes. There is so much to do now with the kids.

Last night, we had dinner at the Messer's and left Jacob behind to spend-the-night. He would live there, probably, if I'd let him. He is far from a home-body, and loves to be anywhere but home. Think he and Ethan enjoyed the break from each other. Ethan is such a different baby when he's alone. He played all day so sweet and peacefully. Boy did things change when we picked Jacob up this afternoon! :) They were really excited to see each other, and got back into their wild ways quickly! :)

It's been a nice Spring Break, and really I'm not ready for Jake to go back to school Monday. He's the greatest kid, and keeps me smiling with his cute comments and never-ending questions. Oh- does he have some questions. I always say he's playing catch up since he started talking late. Not Ethan-- it's so strange having a 1-year-old being so vocal. His clearest word is definitely 'no' and he says it often. Me--'Ethan, let's go night-night.' Ethan-- 'No, night-night, Mommy, no!' We laugh at him a lot now, because his stern 'no!' is so funny, but I have a feeling it's going to get him in a lot of trouble before long.

Looking forward to Sunday tomorrow, since Ronnie doesn't have to work. Anticipating feeling the baby move any day now. I think I may have felt him/her a few times, but I'm not quite sure yet. I'll let ya know as soon as I do! :)

Dreary Weekend

Well, I hope this weekend will turn out better than expected. Ronnie's sick-- poor guy has borderline strep (tested neg., but doctor was surprised) and an ear infection. He's keeping a fever off and on and feeling miserable. He's felt like this since Thursday. Hopefully the antibiotics will kick in soon and help. Poor guy-- I hate this for him.

Rain-- well, I know we need it so bad. And, really I'm thankful for it. But rain to me this weekend means, no T-ball game, and no outside time. Hopefully I'll get creative and come up with some fun stuff for us to do indoors today.

At least Spring Break is next week, and the weather is suppose to be beautiful! Have plans to go to Noah's Ark http://www.noahs-ark.org/ with Rebecca and M&M. SO looking forward to that, since it's been a while since we've seen them, and the boys will love the animals. Hoping the boys won't kill each other next week! They are use to their time alone, while Jake's at school. They really do love each other, but fight so much now. They are great when they are alone, but put them together, and the fighting begins. Guess that's brotherhood for ya! What it boils down to, is Ethan wants everything Jacob has, and Jacob gets tired of it. Can't really blame him. And, Ethan is a little wrestler!!! He has no fear with his brother being twice his size! He'll grab him and pull him down no problem!

Actually to the contrary, yesterday the boys were pretty sweet to each other. We played for a long time, me joining them some, and them playing on their own some. I love moments like that-- when they really get along and laugh together. Will we have another day like that today???

One new development with Ethan. Over the past few weeks he's started to say 'I love you'. Well, not that clearly-- it sounds more like 'I yuh ooh', or 'wuh ooh'. Melts my heart every time, especially when he does it before I say it to him first.

Monday I have another OB check-up, and they will do more blood work. I'll update as soon as I get results. Please pray for continued good results! Also, made my 20 week ultrasound appt.-- May 2nd is the big day we find out what we're having!!!

Off to play with my 'doodlebugs' now. (that's what Granny always called me:)

T-ball & Easter

Well, this past weekend was pretty eventful, to say the least. We started it off with Jacob's first T-ball game Saturday. It was so great! Funniest game I've ever watched, and so sweet. I actually teared up the first few minutes of the game, it was so sweet. I told Mom and Dad, 'I am SO pregnant, if T-ball makes me cry' But, my little boy is growing up!!! I am so my mother's child! :) Anyway, the game was great. Jacob had a hard time at first understanding when he didn't get every ball. He would even throw his glove down when another player would get the ball. It was hilarious! But, Ronnie finally convinced him to root on his teammates, and he started saying 'good job' with a thumbs up every time another one would get the ball. The field was full, by the way, with parents. A parent for every player, I think. It was just so cute. Two highlights for Jacob I think: One ball, he caught on the ground-- rolled right into his glove. He was SO proud. Then when he hit the ball of the 'T' and got to round the bases. The rules are very fair. Each child gets to hit each inning, and you only run one base no matter where you hit. Then each child runs until they make home plate. Jacob was grinning from ear to hear when he got to home, and just stood there watching all of his fans cheer for him! :)

Sunday, as always, was a busy Easter. We started the day with a wonderful service at church, then kept the nursery the 2nd hour. We headed to Mom and Dad's afterwards for an egg hunt and quick bite to eat, before heading to the Messers'. Easter's tough for us since both families have lunch and egg hunts around lunchtime. But, we manage, as we did this year and seemed to be able to enjoy our time at both houses. Dad's devotional was special as always reminding us what Easter is all about. HE IS ALIVE!!!! Lunch was delicious at Mom's, as usual, with her best ham yet, in my opinion. And, at my mother-n-law's house, her dressing was, as always, the best thing on the table. Yum! We enjoyed lots of family time there as well with aunts and uncles, and several cousins, with a huge egg hunt. Ethan actually knew what he was doing, and gathered several eggs. Jacob filled his to the rim, and I had to empty it midway through for him to get more. Lets just say the Messers don't play when it comes to egg hunts. Estimating about 600-700 eggs for about 10 kids!!!

Hard to imagine next Easter we'll have a 6 mo. old to add to the mix. But, I welcome it, and am so excited about it!!! Sure, buying a frilly yellow, pink, or purple dress would be fun. But, I'm prepared to find a 3rd sweater vest to handsome-up another little boy! We'll see!!!

bloodwork results

Got the results today on the bloodwork done Monday, to check for the antibody level. No change-- levels are the same!!!!!!!!!! Thank you, God, for another good report!!!!!!

And, to top it off, Dad got another great report from the doctor this morning!!!!!

Blessings are just pouring in!!!!!!!!

baby update

Both appts. went great! The ultrasound showed a baby that looked 'perfect' according to the ultrasound tech. The baby looked so sweet, and we got several great pictures. I'll have to get someone to scan them for me to post. He/she is precious. No, we don't know what it is yet, but by the looks of it, you'd say a boy. But.......the ultrasound tech. said this early both sexes look alike and it's very hard to tell. I think Ronnie's convinced it's a boy, but I'm holding out hope for a girl. We'll see in 8 weeks at our next ultrasound. Most importantly, the baby looks great, and is doing well.

Our OB visit went great too, and we heard a precious heartbeat! Bloodwork was done on me to check the antibody level. I should have those results in a few days.

We've been gone all day with appts. a few hours apart, and several miles. Boys are hungry- better run! :)

Praising God for a healthy baby!!!

b-day weekend

My 31st was Friday. I had a nice, lazy day. Started out with getting my hair done. Headed home to take a nap, while Ethan did. Did very little all day-- just what I love! :) That night, Mom and Dad took us out to dinner, my pick, at the Olive Garden. SO good! Not Ronnie's favorite, but he sacrificed for my enjoyment. Right before we left for dinner, Ronnie surprised me with a Publix cake and ice cream. Yum- I love their cakes. Then, at dinner, Mom said he had made me a caramel cake!! Yum-yum! So much cake, so little time:) And, one more surprise, Saturday morning, I had a Cheesecake Factory cheesecake delivered to my door, which came from my buddy, Jamie, from Charlotte. She has SO spoiled me, making this the 3rd or 4th year she's sent me one for my b-day. Thank you all for the cakes!!! But, oh how fat I will be!!! :) Think they all know sweets are my favorite???

Saturday was another very lazy day for the four of us. After picking up the boys from Mom and Dad, where they had spent the night before, for a treat for Mommy on her b-day of sleeping in the next day, we stopped by and rented movies on the way home. It was a very cold day with windshield temps. in the 20's. So, Ronnie built us a fire, and we enjoyed movies. Jacob, with 2 in his room, Ethan watching Mickey Mouse re-runs in our room, and Ronnie and I trying to watch movies in the den with many interruptions. What were we thinking trying to watch movies while they were awake! Still we all enjoyed time together, despite the touch of cabin fever from the boys.

And, today we headed to church like every Sunday. We've just recently been moved from keeping 2-year-olds to keeping walkers/1-year-olds, at 11am. This is Ethan's age group, but he's in the younger group across the hall. Didn't work well keeping him with us last week, as he wanted me to hold him the entire time, not sharing me with the other 9 kiddos. That little 2 hour break is good for us every Sunday, and he loves his teachers. The 9 we kept today were so sweet, and I have to admit, I was partial to the little girls in their precious dresses. One little girl even had a Vera Bradley purse to match her outfit!!! I told Ronnie, if this baby is a little girl, she will be so be frilled up like this little girl was. So cute!

We have two appts. tomorrow, one with the specialist, and one with our regular OB. The specialist appt. is actually for an ultrasound for some testing we chose to have. They offer these tests to everyone now, and this test is the nuchal translucency screening-- here's a link about it: http://www.babycenter.com/0_nuchal-translucency-screening_118.bc. This is what was found on Ethan early on, which miraculously went away before birth. Please pray for good results for this little one. Our OB appt. is just a quick check-up, where I think we'll get to hear the heartbeat, and I'll also have blood drawn again to test the antibody! I'll update afterwards. Thanks for your prayers!

Well, both boys were napping when I started this post. Now, both are awake. Better run!

introduction

Okay, everyone else has one, guess it's my turn. Heidi gave me the idea with her blog, and I love the idea of keeping a journal of our lives, especially for our kids to read when they are older.

As for me, most of you know, I stay home full-time with our boys. And, we'll be adding a 3rd kiddo to the mix come September. We don't know yet if that will be a boy or a girl. Have to wait several more weeks to find out. I'll be 12 weeks along this Friday. I'm feeling good most days, with the exception of staying sleepy and having NO energy. I've had a touch of naseau, but I won't complain after hearing how bad so many women have it. I find it such a priviledge to stay home with our boys full-time. Sure, it's hard some days. I miss adult interaction, and do get a little cabin fever here and there. But, for the most part, I'm a home-body anyway, so it works. Being able to see our boys grow up is so special, and I try to never take that for granted. Challenging? Oh yes, most days I have at least an hour or so of that. But, Ronnie's here sometimes during the day to give me a breather, or if not, I learn to walk away and take a time out myself! :) All in all, I wouldn't change it for the world. I believe it is God's will for me to stay home right now, and I thank him for it. September is a bit scary to me, but I know we'll adjust. My biggest worry is Ethan-- he's my biggest Momma's boy!

Ronnie is staying busy, busy, busy with both his jobs. He has his own business with his best friend. Well, really it's two businesses they have together-- Masterpiece Custom Trim Inc. and Decks'R'Us. And, then he works nights Sun-Thurs. at FedEx. I do miss him at night, but I know this is how things have to be right now. We're praying for a management job with FedEx in the future. He's done really well at FedEx, and was promoted about a year ago. He's been with the company now, about 5 years, and really likes it.

Jacob is four now-- will turn five in June. He's in the Ga. Pre-K program, so he goes five full days a week- 8a-2:30pm. He LOVES it, and misses it so much when they are out. He's been blessed with two wonderful teachers, who are so good to him, and have only wonderful things to say about him. Ronnie's sister, Tanya, works at the same school. It's nice having here there. Jacob is learning so much-- a little sponge, really. His speech has come SO far over the past 2 1/2 years. He's still in speech therapy, and we will welcome it as long as he qualifies for it. He talks non-stop-- it's not quantity that's the problem at all!!! He is just continuing to work on clarity, and strengthening the muscles in his mouth. We are so proud of him! Jacob is very soft-hearted, and Ronnie's says, a lot like me with his emotions. He can get his feelings hurt pretty easily. But, on the same note, remembers everything you tell him, and is always concerned about family and friends. He starts T-ball practice tonight. This will be his first year, and we're really excited for him.

Ethan is 20 months old now. Hard to believe my baby will be two in June! He is such a mess! Little attitude, for sure. And, he drives Jacob crazy. He's Jacob's shadow, as most little brothers are, and he's gotta be hanging onto him constantly. Gets on Jake's nerves, but he tolerates him pretty well. Yes, they have their share of fighting, but I guess that's to be expected in brothers. Ethan is a talker, for sure, with his vocabulary growing more and more every day. He LOVES Mickey Mouse, and we probably watch 5 episodes a day! He knows all the characters, and never gets tired of it. He's for sure my Momma's boy! I worry how he'll be the bigger I get, and the less I can hold him. I worry even more how he'll react to a new baby in the house, and the attention that it will take away from him. He does love babies, and points them out every time we see one. Maybe that's a good sign??? He's our cuddly boy.

Well, I look forward to keeping everyone up to date on us. Thanks for reading!